i was in quite a good mood just now before i got home and my father had to spoil it all with his nagging. sometimes, silence speaks louder than words. you don't have to overstate your concern for me as if i'm a complete idiot who doesn't know that you're worried about me. i understand and really do appreciate your concern but i would appreciate it even more if you just have a little trust/faith/confidence (or whatever you like to call it) in me to be able to plan my own life. for goodness sake, i'm almost twenty, one year away from adulthood. yes, i do know that in the parents' eyes, their children will always be children no matter how old they are and they will never stop worrying about them. but they just need to release their hold on the children gradually cos (cruel as it sounds) the children will grow up one day and leave them to start their own families. i admit that i'll be damn sad if i'm the parent but i think letting the children go is also a form of love and i'm sure they will be able to feel that. i guess my parents, like most traditional asian parents, are the type who can't vocalize their thoughts and concern well so it always achieves the opposite effect. i have to admit that i'm equally culpable of this. as much as i wanna show them that i really do appreciate their concern for me, i just can't do it in the right way and it always comes across as me being irritated or resentful. what has happened to communications? hui, you gotta try harder!

anyway i was saying that i was in a good mood before i got carried away talking about my father blah blah blah. yeah i've been quite happy this week, probably cos ltb execution is over and that's a huge load off my mind and i've regained my motivation to study again! i'm not sure why the two issues are linked together but who cares? lalala :)