it's half past five in the morning and i'm still wide awake! the body clock's been acting pretty insanely these days; i can't sleep till after 3 and i wake up arnd noon, contrary to the usual days where i sleep the entire afternoon away.
few days ago, i finally dropped the bomb on my father regarding the impending exchange trip. to my surprise, he did not have any violent objection and told me to go ahead if that was what i wanted. my mom, however, seemed to become more reluctant to let me go as the date draws near. sometimes i can't help but feel selfish for leaving the family behind to pursue my own interests but (the "but"s!) at the same time, i don't want to be restrained by such a responsibility and live to regret my decision later. let's just hope it's a passing phase and everyone will be happy in a while!