ugh i'm at a loss for words again. had the urge to blog right away but cant seem to find the right words.

i'm starting to believe that things happen for a reason. if you notice, before something significant actually happens, there is always some form of lead-up to it, like how you thought you saw someone whom you haven seen for years again; how you finally decided to start watching a taiwanese drama which you'd been either too lazy or busy to do so in the past, how you started searching for and listening to emo chinese songs. the thought of this is rather disturbing - does it mean that one's thoughts and actions are actually dictated by a higher being up there; or is it just me reading too much into things? if we were to agree that things happen for a reason, what is then, the eventual outcome that's supposed to occur? could this also be the lead-up to something else?

hmm.