one star kayaking over the weekends. my face is burnt like a red lobster now and im damn tired but it doesnt help that tomorrow's monday and there's work and nitebike meeting after that. great.

so many things to do, yet so little time.

laolin, this is for you :)

the world's becoming a better place, really. people are becoming weirdly normal and surprisingly understanding (not that i'm complaining of course). i guess it's all about breaking the personal and perceptual barrier, and making the first move so that the other party feels the sincerity and reciprocate in return. often, we're waiting for others to make the first move. but think of it, if everyone's waiting, who is ever going to make the first move? yes, it takes a lot to convince oneself to make that first step but only after trying will you realize that it's actually not that big a deal afterall!

sorry seems to be the hardest word.

bon voyage to juls who flew to aussie today! be sure to try out all the pasta recipes and cook for us when you get back!

work. was a lil late.
work. sian.
matt came to join me for lunch!
work. sian.
work. end.
went to chomps for dinner today with wei, fio and matt!
so you get the point lol?

the three of us :)

the huge amount of food we ordered! YUM :)

and we cleared it all!

faces of ultimate satisfaction mm :)

chua hui hui and chua wei wei who were born a mere 3 days apart!

the blessed matthew chan.

i miss that feeling of old familiarity - where you can be yourself without having to put on a pretense just to please or accomodate others. some say life is a stage where we are all but actors in that never-ending play, putting on different masks in different scenes. but i beg to differ. i've always believed that life is about choices, even though sometimes you have to make certain sacrifices in return for the decisions you've made, but ultimately you do get to choose, dont you?

so, do you choose to be yourself or some other stranger?

i duno why but i've been thinking a lot lately and getting myself all moody. perhaps things have been going rather well that it hasnt occurred to me they aint supposed to be like that in the first place. the same issues are resurfacing - family, friends, relationships. somehow i seem to be the only one worrying. i should seriously just heck it but that's really a lot easier said than done. someone's gotta care and do something about it ya?

but why has it always got to be me?

i need to talk. i need to rant. i need to vent.

yay juls came to lunch with me again today :) and this time she brought along home-made vodka cream pasta specially prepared by her! i wld say that it was actually not bad for a first time. more mushrooms and cream for me next time!

the pasta ...

and the chef!

my blogging frequency has increased probably owing to the acquisition of a digicam. somehow photos are more fun to blog about and not to forget, a picture speaks a thousand words :)

was two hours late for work today :\ this isnt good considering that it's only my third day of work and i was slightly late ytd too. ohwells i'm gonna prove my worth!

anyway i had my first proper lunch today, thanks to juls! i haven been eating my lunch since work started cos i dont like the idea of lunching alone. so, please do come find me for lunch if you're around chinatown or raffles place alright! we had aglio oglio which was quite good! i feel so in the mood to cook now! took down some chicken recipes during work and i cant wait to try them out! cordon bleu!

my mushrooom aglio oglio :)

met up with the girls after work and i brought them to mr tea for sandwiches and monopoly/cluedo! shall let the photos do the talking :) having a camera is just different!




met lynnette at mr tea playing scrabble lol!

highlight of the day - menotti!





:)

ok i'm typing from my work computer now. it's 15 minutes to dismissal time and most of the people (actually it's only two out of four, including me) have left, which explains why i'm blogging away. work's not as bad as expected. besides answering phone calls, typing, photocopying, filing and binding in the office, i get to travel to deliver documents and bank cheques. if any of you happen to drop by chinatown or raffles place, do call me up for lunch!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
yes i know i was just complaining about my mum a while ago and how she was angry with me, ignoring me (even when i was horribly sick) and then calling to scream at me for being out late just last thurs. i wasn't exactly looking forward to sunday cos i dint know what to do. i wasn't angry with her; i just felt frustrated that i cldnt convince her or get her to understand me. somehow, pretending nothing happened appeared to the best way out even though i hate pretending nothing happened when something actually did happen. so yeah, the both of us pretended nothing happened and everything went well :) i dint get her anything, partly cos of the earlier stated reason and also cos i dint know what to get. we went out for dinner; it was my treat and i bought her a flower :) i think flowers make the best gift for any girl or woman! i certainly hope she changes her attitude after today!
photos taken with the new family camera! people have been saying how i look like my mum and how my sis and i look like twins so i'll let the photos do the talking.

yay the details for the april/may gathering are finally out! i wanted to k initially but cos i'm starting work tmr, we shall have to do that some other day :\ for a change, we shall be playing old school game MONOPOLY over sandwiches and tea and have our nice girly talk! for more details, just show up and you'll know!

i've been damn lazy to blog. was sick for more than a week but miraculously recovered after a night of all-time fave scrabble lol. guess the brain's not used to being neglected after a period of intensive mugging.
anyway i havent found a job so i'm still happily slacking my time away. not a bad thing though, except that i have to try hard not to go out too much. finally got called for my first job interview in the morn so we'll see how it goes later.

fianlly, photos from perhentian!

so be it if you cant be bothered with me anymore. i dont really care, really. i'm not sorry for the things i've said; maybe a little for the harsh tone i took. but then again, i'd broached the subject to you calmly on previous occasions but you dint seem to listen. i'm quite tired of explaining myself to you over and over again.

it's now done. i shall relish the new-found freedom.